Hello, I'm back! :)
As I have mentioned in my previous entry, I will continue writing until the end of my first trimester. In my 5th week, I have been having sleepless nights. My AF like cramp normally kicks in at 2 or 4 o'clock in the morning! It happens during the day too. They are not too painful but enough to keep me awake, making me feel sorry for myself...so I pray quietly alone at night or munch some crackers to make the pain go away. They normally work, thank God :)
I know 2ww is hard, but getting through the first semester is harder for me. I worry all the time. When I am not in pain, I wonder if the baby is ok. But when I am in pain, I started to worry about the possibility of miscarriage ....I need to snap out of this I know, but it is so hard, harder than I thought. I feel blessed and I am not complaining, but I need to stop worrying but I just don't know how :(
Now at 5 weeks ++, my cramp is not as frequent as the last week but I am very very emotional. I cried at the smallest things - hubby came home late, reading about poor people, no one offers me food, uncooperative committees for an event that I am organising etc. I'm quite warm too, almost all the time with increase cm down there. I miss having sex with my husband but looks like he in enjoying this one way pleasure, hmmmmph!
I hope next week will be better and I hope my baby is doing great...Please pray for us! And I am thinking of all of you, my readers of your TTC journey...my thoughts and prayers are always with you...
Sunday 20 November 2011
Saturday 12 November 2011
My Beta Test Result
Dear Readers,
We are 4 weeks old today, Alhamdulillah. My beta was 279 and we hope we can hear our baby's first heart beat in 2.5 weeks time. Thank you for your support, it means the world to me even though we have never met. I have been in your shoes, I thought I will never fall pregnant. But Alhamdulillah I did. My singleton decided to stay...We are very grateful.
When we were trying to conceive, as much as I feel happy about other people's pregnancy, I couldn't help feeling sad for myself and wishing to be in their shoes. Therefore, I will only blog until my first trimester. InsyaAllah, I will be with Dr Prashant for the first trimester and after that, I believe he will recommend me to other gynae. Hopefully, we will make it :) I will not go into details about how we received our good news but I want to share the below with you.
If you are trying to conceive naturally:
- Start taking folic acid and vitamin c 3 months before trying.
- Use the ovulation kit
- Doa Doa and Doa (pray)
- Talk to each other about how you feel, Husband and Wife
If you decide to go to see a fertility specialist:
- Do your homework, choose a doc who you feel comfortable with, a clinic which makes you feel like you are almost at home and not too far from your house.
- Be mentally prepared. I am terrified of needles but the worst part is still the waiting game, it was mentally challenging.
If you are in your 2ww:
- you can never tell whether you are pregnant or not until beta test. I felt like my AF was on the way. But to keep you sane, do read online about other people's experience on their 2ww. It helps.
- only 48 hours of bed rest is needed. Go out, have fun, relax but no sex, no exercise and no heavy lifting.
- I read Surah Mariam and the tafsir for the first 1 week after the transfer and the last 2 days before my beta while rubbing my tummy. No body told me to do it but the meaning of the Surah is so beautiful.
- in every prayers, pray that Allah give life to my embryo and hoping the embryo will be in a good health and the baby will be a good person. Also pray that my husband and I will be good parents to our child.
If you find out you are pregnant:
- Remember those who help you to get pregnant, especially God.
- Think of the people who are still trying. We have been there, we know how it feels. Not easy but we understand.
My journey doesn't end here. InsyaAllah, if my pregnancy goes well, a year after, I will go for my FET. We know now we cannot conceive naturally, so I will be back. For now, I hope and pray for Allah's blessing that my pregnancy will go well. Once again, thank you very very much for reading and for your help, I really appreciate it. I hope you will get your BFP soon. InsyaAllah.
We are 4 weeks old today, Alhamdulillah. My beta was 279 and we hope we can hear our baby's first heart beat in 2.5 weeks time. Thank you for your support, it means the world to me even though we have never met. I have been in your shoes, I thought I will never fall pregnant. But Alhamdulillah I did. My singleton decided to stay...We are very grateful.
When we were trying to conceive, as much as I feel happy about other people's pregnancy, I couldn't help feeling sad for myself and wishing to be in their shoes. Therefore, I will only blog until my first trimester. InsyaAllah, I will be with Dr Prashant for the first trimester and after that, I believe he will recommend me to other gynae. Hopefully, we will make it :) I will not go into details about how we received our good news but I want to share the below with you.
If you are trying to conceive naturally:
- Start taking folic acid and vitamin c 3 months before trying.
- Use the ovulation kit
- Doa Doa and Doa (pray)
- Talk to each other about how you feel, Husband and Wife
If you decide to go to see a fertility specialist:
- Do your homework, choose a doc who you feel comfortable with, a clinic which makes you feel like you are almost at home and not too far from your house.
- Be mentally prepared. I am terrified of needles but the worst part is still the waiting game, it was mentally challenging.
If you are in your 2ww:
- you can never tell whether you are pregnant or not until beta test. I felt like my AF was on the way. But to keep you sane, do read online about other people's experience on their 2ww. It helps.
- only 48 hours of bed rest is needed. Go out, have fun, relax but no sex, no exercise and no heavy lifting.
- I read Surah Mariam and the tafsir for the first 1 week after the transfer and the last 2 days before my beta while rubbing my tummy. No body told me to do it but the meaning of the Surah is so beautiful.
- in every prayers, pray that Allah give life to my embryo and hoping the embryo will be in a good health and the baby will be a good person. Also pray that my husband and I will be good parents to our child.
If you find out you are pregnant:
- Remember those who help you to get pregnant, especially God.
- Think of the people who are still trying. We have been there, we know how it feels. Not easy but we understand.
My journey doesn't end here. InsyaAllah, if my pregnancy goes well, a year after, I will go for my FET. We know now we cannot conceive naturally, so I will be back. For now, I hope and pray for Allah's blessing that my pregnancy will go well. Once again, thank you very very much for reading and for your help, I really appreciate it. I hope you will get your BFP soon. InsyaAllah.
Thursday 10 November 2011
IVF - 11dpt3dt
Hi :)
Nope, I have not done hpt. I figured, if it is positive, I can be happy forever but if it is negative, why start feeling sad so early when I can delay the feeling until Saturday? So I am going to wait and see :)
Lately I have been feeling pretty tired and sleepy. But it has to be because I have not been doing any exercise lately. Other than lazing around, shopping trip, visiting friends and relatives, I have done nothing else. Boring...I will go back to work soon, I'm so tired of doing nothing.
AF cramp comes and go but not too bad. I felt the cramp this morning for an hour, then the cramp is gone. Normally, near my AF, I will have cramp plus one or two pimple. So far, no pimple on my face but I have one near my armpit that last for 2 days only. Now it is gone. So every morning, I wake up and straight away look for a mirror to check for pimples hehe.
Im taking a break from writing until my beta test this Saturday. My mother told me a story about a friend who went through IVF 4 times, no success. I am so scared. I can't think now, I hope God will help her and give her the strength to go through this hard time. I believe God is fair...I look forward to Saturday, the waiting is killing me but I will wait :) not too long now!
Nope, I have not done hpt. I figured, if it is positive, I can be happy forever but if it is negative, why start feeling sad so early when I can delay the feeling until Saturday? So I am going to wait and see :)
Lately I have been feeling pretty tired and sleepy. But it has to be because I have not been doing any exercise lately. Other than lazing around, shopping trip, visiting friends and relatives, I have done nothing else. Boring...I will go back to work soon, I'm so tired of doing nothing.
AF cramp comes and go but not too bad. I felt the cramp this morning for an hour, then the cramp is gone. Normally, near my AF, I will have cramp plus one or two pimple. So far, no pimple on my face but I have one near my armpit that last for 2 days only. Now it is gone. So every morning, I wake up and straight away look for a mirror to check for pimples hehe.
Im taking a break from writing until my beta test this Saturday. My mother told me a story about a friend who went through IVF 4 times, no success. I am so scared. I can't think now, I hope God will help her and give her the strength to go through this hard time. I believe God is fair...I look forward to Saturday, the waiting is killing me but I will wait :) not too long now!
Monday 7 November 2011
IVF - 8dpt3dt
Hello hello,
I have been ill since yesterday. Running nose plus mild fever and slight sore throat. I took 2 paracetamols yesterday and been drinking lots of water. I am worried that it might affects the embryo but at this stage, if pregnancy were meant to be, the implantation should have been completed. I am feeling much better now even though not 100% recovered...very worried still.
I have no symptoms I think. The cramping is almost gone but I do feel tired since last 2 days. Maybe cause I was ill...my sore breasts is almost gone too. Basically, I have explanations for all the symptoms, so that is why I think i have no pregnancy symptoms. This morning I had my breakfast at 11 and by 130pm I was very hungry. But it was lunch time anyway. Hmmmm
I am thinking of doing a home pregnancy test tomorrow or maybe Wednesday. What do you think? Dr P said the result may not be accurate, so he suggests Wednesday should be ok if I want to do hpt of which the result will be confirmed this Saturday when I do my blood test. should I?
So far, all signs point towards no sign of pregnancy :( So I am preparing for the worst but hoping for the best! InsyaAllah, we will be ok.
xoxo
I have been ill since yesterday. Running nose plus mild fever and slight sore throat. I took 2 paracetamols yesterday and been drinking lots of water. I am worried that it might affects the embryo but at this stage, if pregnancy were meant to be, the implantation should have been completed. I am feeling much better now even though not 100% recovered...very worried still.
I have no symptoms I think. The cramping is almost gone but I do feel tired since last 2 days. Maybe cause I was ill...my sore breasts is almost gone too. Basically, I have explanations for all the symptoms, so that is why I think i have no pregnancy symptoms. This morning I had my breakfast at 11 and by 130pm I was very hungry. But it was lunch time anyway. Hmmmm
I am thinking of doing a home pregnancy test tomorrow or maybe Wednesday. What do you think? Dr P said the result may not be accurate, so he suggests Wednesday should be ok if I want to do hpt of which the result will be confirmed this Saturday when I do my blood test. should I?
So far, all signs point towards no sign of pregnancy :( So I am preparing for the worst but hoping for the best! InsyaAllah, we will be ok.
xoxo
Friday 4 November 2011
IVF - 5dpt3dt
Hello,
I am approaching day 6 of my 2 weeks wait. Time flies pretty quick. We went to see Dr Prashant today. The wait was longer than usual, it was an hour wait. Dr P did a quick scan on my uterus and ovaries, the scan was on my tummy, so pants on ;) Uterus looks ok despite my worry about the leaking progesterone. My left ovary is bigger than my right but that is normal as I probably have more eggs in my left ovary. We froze 3 of my embryos, 8 cells which are of great qualities. My meeting with Dr Prashant was brief. If this cycle fails, I can start FET in January 2012...I'm staying positive but I have to prepare for the worst too.
Dr P prescribe me with Progynova 2 tablets a day :) Progynova is a synthetic hormone replacement for oestrogen. It is used to build up the lining of the uterus in preparation for embryo transfer or after ET. Side effects are uncommon, but breast tenderness, gastric upset, nausea, headaches and an increase in bodyweight have been reported. We shall wait n see :)
My 2 weeks wait so far. No symptom at all. Well, yes, still minor lower abdominal pain but I know that is from the eggs retrieval. I actually felt like I'm going to get my menses. I was reading online about other people's experience but for me, nothing. The only feeling is gassy. I actually have been farting like crazy (blush!). Pity hubby ;) but again, that is the side effect from ER. So to report, no symptom pointing towards pregnancy. I am so sad. I never fall pregnant but not even getting the chance to feel pregnant... :(
I will write again soon, until then Selamat Hari Raya Haji to my Muslim readers :)
I am approaching day 6 of my 2 weeks wait. Time flies pretty quick. We went to see Dr Prashant today. The wait was longer than usual, it was an hour wait. Dr P did a quick scan on my uterus and ovaries, the scan was on my tummy, so pants on ;) Uterus looks ok despite my worry about the leaking progesterone. My left ovary is bigger than my right but that is normal as I probably have more eggs in my left ovary. We froze 3 of my embryos, 8 cells which are of great qualities. My meeting with Dr Prashant was brief. If this cycle fails, I can start FET in January 2012...I'm staying positive but I have to prepare for the worst too.
Dr P prescribe me with Progynova 2 tablets a day :) Progynova is a synthetic hormone replacement for oestrogen. It is used to build up the lining of the uterus in preparation for embryo transfer or after ET. Side effects are uncommon, but breast tenderness, gastric upset, nausea, headaches and an increase in bodyweight have been reported. We shall wait n see :)
My 2 weeks wait so far. No symptom at all. Well, yes, still minor lower abdominal pain but I know that is from the eggs retrieval. I actually felt like I'm going to get my menses. I was reading online about other people's experience but for me, nothing. The only feeling is gassy. I actually have been farting like crazy (blush!). Pity hubby ;) but again, that is the side effect from ER. So to report, no symptom pointing towards pregnancy. I am so sad. I never fall pregnant but not even getting the chance to feel pregnant... :(
I will write again soon, until then Selamat Hari Raya Haji to my Muslim readers :)
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