At 5 weeks +++

Hello, I'm back! :)

As I have mentioned in my previous entry, I will continue writing until the end of my first trimester. In my 5th week, I have been having sleepless nights. My AF like cramp normally kicks in at 2 or 4 o'clock in the morning! It happens during the day too. They are not too painful but enough to keep me awake, making me feel sorry for myself...so I pray quietly alone at night or munch some crackers to make the pain go away. They normally work, thank God :)

I know 2ww is hard, but getting through the first semester is harder for me. I worry all the time. When I am not in pain, I wonder if the baby is ok. But when I am in pain, I started to worry about the possibility of miscarriage ....I need to snap out of this I know, but it is so hard, harder than I thought. I feel blessed and I am not complaining, but I need to stop worrying but I just don't know how :(

Now at 5 weeks ++, my cramp is not as frequent as the last week but I am very very emotional. I cried at the smallest things - hubby came home late, reading about poor people, no one offers me food, uncooperative committees for an event that I am organising etc. I'm quite warm too, almost all the time with increase cm down there. I miss having sex with my husband but looks like he in enjoying this one way pleasure, hmmmmph!

I hope next week will be better and I hope my baby is doing great...Please pray for us! And I am thinking of all of you, my readers of your TTC journey...my thoughts and prayers are always with you...